Le shopping bug is BACK!!

I don't know if it's the imminent change in seasons (yes), the decreased rate of shopping I've done over the past few months (yes), the upcoming trip to Hawaii (awwww yeeeeahhhhh), or the fact that I'm trying to save up money (ugh) that's making me feel like I have to shop.  I tell you what, though, I feel like if I don't drop a couple hundred bucks on some quality items within the next few days, I just might...not explode, but be really sad and anxious, and probably discombobulated.  It's like a vegetable-less diet for my psyche--it leaves me feeling mentally bloaty.  Nice picture, right?

ModCloth was/is/idk having a 70% off sale, so you know I had to take advantage of that yesterday.  I bought two cheap funky necklaces and a SWEET lightweight white jacket with black embroidery on it.  The embroidery looks like constellations.  That, or an epidemiology map.  It was originally $173.99 and I definitely got it for $51.99.  I think that's worth being infected by whatever contagion is diagrammed on it.

I spent hours on Lands' End's overstocks section today.  I had three coats/jackets in my shopping cart (Did I make it up that one of my distant cousins invented online shopping carts?  I might've made that up.) after doing super-sleuthing through sizes and styles and Not-Quite-Perfect offerings.  Unfortunately, after I did some account-checking (ya gots to have the monay to buy 'em), two of the three were out of stock.  Shimmenyboogers.  And they were my number-one and -two choices.

Now that that purchase has been frustrated and aborted, I've still got the itch.  I'm wrestling with God on this one, I think -- it was probably His doing to make my coats go away, you know, to save me money -- and I feel guilty for wanting to buy anything else.  But buddy.  I am dying to buy stuff.

Mom sent me an article a month or so ago about compulsive shopping, its tells, treatments and t-somethings (I had to do three things, and they all had to start with T!); I didn't think it was me at all, even though it said that many teachers and others in caregiving roles are often...victims?  Sufferers?  Sad faces?  Anyway, it also said that many compulsive shoppers have issues with eating (psh SO not me...and please ignore my last post) and get an adrenaline rush from the shopping (uhhh...).  It also said that many suffer from depression, and I'm not depressed, so I'm good.

That still doesn't explain why I feel this need, this craving, this strong pulling desire to shop.  Maybe it is God, just in a different way than I'd thought.

Ooh, or maybe it's de debil.  Yikes.  Never mind, no shopping for me!!!